Monday, January 9, 2012

Scared and confused.

I finally found the man of my dreams.  He is perfect.  But I dont think I am what he wants.  He used to go out and party and do things with his friends.  He had his truck, the mud runs, going four wheeling and sledding.  Now he says he doesnt want to but I know its bullshit.  I used to love going out dancing, hanging out with friends and shopping.  Now I just stay here.  All the time.  We dont do anything and I dont know that he even wants to.  Its so hard to tell how he feels or what he wants cuz he doesnt talk to me at all.  He opened up to me ONCE.  Thats it.  In seven months.  Its a shitty feeling.  I want to pour my heart out to him and tell him everything.  I have been thru so much and just want to share it all.  Maybe he just doesnt care.  That seems to be his thing lately.  He says he doesnt care about pretty much everything I say.  And even better, he says all the time he would marry me today then he says yesterday that we barely know each other.  WTF is that all about.  I guess him and I are not on the same page.